%I found out bout licence$1600 to fix
%Broke it off with cristian slater
%printed the ITILV3 study guides and practice test
***Need to fix license $1600 ($400 a week), start sleeping early, join the YMCA gym, study,an hour a day, 2 hours Sat, 2 hours Sunday, save$ for shoes for work, save $ for internet ($122), Manny ($45), Phone ($45)****
I had a good time with Cristian Slater Phil. But I dont want to be his girl, and I most definetly dont want to move in with him. I am not ready for another fucking relationship. And he has issues, yeah he is super smart, but he can be a bit too much for me. And I need a break from men. I dont think I can tell him. And I should I will probably tell him tmrw. Not sure if I could. I have so much work to do
Do ticket tmrw at office
Find out about license during break
send a tex to Phil telling him you dont want to be his girl, u need a break
He looks so much like young christian slater and bale, like in INterview with the vampire. His personality reminds me so much of my exhusbands I mean he does everything my exhusband used to. Too bad he cut his hair, I was so attracted to his long hair, but he got a haircut. It looks nice but its not my fave, He had taken a shower last night and when he came out his hair was all wild and super handsome. He looks so good with out a shirt on, and he smells so fucking manly when he comes out of the shower. He wears axe spray man that shit smells so good on him. Its great to live in a city where its cold due to the fact that we dont sweat as much. We’ve been staying at this hotel rooms for the past few days. My exboyfriend has no idea what I am up to. I did tell him I wasnt in love with him anymore.
His name is Phil he told me he wants to be with me, I acted vague. I dont want a relationship. These past couple of days we’ve been saying we want to be friends with benefits. Yet, just right now he asked me to go with him. I cant be in a relationship for a long time. I would rather be friends with benefits. He was obviously talking to his ex girlfriend who lives in Virginia he even has her named tattooed on his chest. WE both still have our past right there. I lied to him and told him I live with my little brother, he lied to me and tells me he is talking to some other guy, when it was obvious he was speaking to his girl from Virginia. HA, i dont day a word about it. Neither does he. So I got a hotel till Sunday, heck I need to save money for my license so I can drive from RI to Hartford, Boston and NYC. My job is my dream come true I have to buy new shoes, so I can maneuver a lot better, I noticed ppl here are at a faster pace. I need to gain some speed on y feet. It sucks to have such a slow pace of walking and it sucks that everything is so fst paced here in the city. I have to walk fast everywhere. My feet hurt so much right now. Anyhow my paychecks will be fat god willing, I need to keep praying they dont do anything about my license until a few weeks from now. I got a blackberry too. This job literally was handed to me by the hand of god. And I had really nice people to take me under their wings. My boss is super cool with me and he told to call him whenever I have have any issue, BlackBerry,company vehicle, and being a technician that doesnt stay in one spot. This is the job I always wanted and I need to get my shit together. I need to get my license fixed and I need to get the ball rolling with my certifications, those are my goals. This is the beginning of someething so fucking beautiful and I cant be in a relationship with anybody right now I need to focus on myself just like my sponsor was telling me to chill the fuck out with men. I need to stay away as much as possible im thinking right after this I wont see him again. Even though he looks so sexy naked. Barely any ass, and a bit skinny, I am watching him walk around the room as I write, he is tatted up so nicely. enough with the boy craze STEPH!!! FUCK!! WHEN WILL YOU FUCKING LEARN!
I don’t got time for men, or anyone bossing me around. I can be serious about my sobriety without joining a stupid sober house, and I don’t need men to flirt with just to feel recognition.